highschool blues.

I know I talk to you kiddies all the time, but I feel as if I haven't really talked for a while.

So here's what's been on my mind lately.

Firsts things first, this:

I am in an abusive relationship with track.

It expects so much out of me.

It hurts me. (hurt is an understatement)

But I love it.

Next I'm stressing is this:

It's BYU Hawaii. I want to go so badly.

But wait my grades aren't too hot (I have a C),

I 'm broke,

I have no time to do service,

and my parent's couldn't possibly send their last kid

over seas.

Gr.

And finally! This:

This picture pretty wraps up my love life completely.

Two black shadows!

Haa kidding. But I'm uncertain about them boys.

my insides.

you know when you feel so broken,

you want to put the most depressing thing you can possibly think of as your status in facebook,

so everyone can get a taste of your feelings?

you want to eat all of the chocolate in your house?

or maybe all of the ice cream at golden spoon?

Or maybe just stop eating altogether.

You know when you want to run away from all your problems, but when you run

you're gasping for air,

but it's not because you're tired?

when you want someone to cuddle up with,

but she's dead?

or you need a sister to comfort you,

but she's gone?

That's what i'm feeling now.